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Hi, I'm Michelle. I was born February of 1987. I'm a Filipina. I live in Philippines.
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Buti pa ang saging, may puso. #NoToSofitelDay40 #BoycottSofitelPHDay40 #heart #banana #discrimination

Buti pa ang saging, may puso. #NoToSofitelDay40 #BoycottSofitelPHDay40 #heart #banana #discrimination

— 11:52 PM August 21, 2014

#heart  #discrimination  #notosofitelday40  #banana  #boycottsofitelphday40 
Mama Lola and Baby Ellie #bebe #bilogbilog @TitoCielo’s

Mama Lola and Baby Ellie #bebe #bilogbilog @TitoCielo’s

— 01:10 PM August 20, 2014

#bebe  #bilogbilog 
Pix pix muna while nagpapakarga. #shell #beanie #boys (at Yellow Cab - Macapagal)

Pix pix muna while nagpapakarga. #shell #beanie #boys (at Yellow Cab - Macapagal)

— 09:23 AM August 20, 2014

#boys  #beanie  #shell 
Lay flat on the floor.

Lay flat on the floor.

— 12:55 PM August 19, 2014

Can you smell my ammonia-treated hair..? xD <3xoxo

Can you smell my ammonia-treated hair..? xD <3xoxo

— 12:54 PM August 19, 2014

Parang ilang taon kitang hindi nakita.

Parang ilang taon kitang hindi nakita.

— 12:52 PM August 19, 2014

Sinubukan kong hiramin ulit ‘yong iPhone niya bago siya pumunta sa bodega, pero ayaw niya kasi baka bigla raw magtext si Kuya Biboy. Sabi ko, “hindi naman nagtetext si kuya sa ‘yo eh.” Pero sabi niya, “mamaya na lang, magsawa ka.” Sumama agad loob ko, parang gusto kong umiyak, pero siyempre hindi pwede kasi maraming tao at saka napakababaw ko para umiyak. Kaya, pagkatapos kong hugasan pinagkainan naming dalawa, umakyat na lang ako sa kwarto namin. Pero pagpasok ko hindi ko na napigil luha ko, naiyak na ako. Ang OA ko ‘di ba? Sobra. Hindi lang ‘yon. Alam ko naman na mali ako kasi hindi naman akin ‘yong iPhone na ‘yon, kanya ‘yon eh. Kaya wala akong karapatan na makaramdam ng ganito. Para maiba iniisip ko, kinuha ko na lang panglinis ng kuko ko at pinutulan ko ng kaunti mga kuko ko sa kamay kasi ang haba na raw at saka ang pangit tingnan, sabi niya. Sinabayan ko pa ng panonood ng T.V. para mapunta sa ibang bagay ang isip ko. Maya-maya, kumatok sa kwarto, pumasok pero hindi ko pinansin. Pagkatapos niyang magbihis, nagpaalam na, sa Manila Hotel daw siya ngayon. Palabas na siya ng maalala niya ‘yong tubig. Kinuha niya ‘yong plastic bottle, lumabas, pero pumasok at ibinaba ulit. Tapos tinanong ko siya kung ano kakainin ko kasi nakakahiya naman kay Nanay kung aasa ako sa niluto niya. Nag-isip pa siya, pero tinanong niya ako kung ano gusto ko, hindi ako sumagot agad, sabi ko wag na at umalis na siya. Pumasok siya ulit ng kwarto, sabay tunog ng phone niya, binasa ‘yong text, nagreply yata, ewan ko, hindi ko naman siya tinitingnan, pero parang tinitigan niya ako ng matagal tapos kinuha niya ‘yong plastic na bote tapos bumaba. Hindi pa rin gumaan pakiramdam ko kasi kung hindi ko ipapaalala sa kaniya, hindi niya maaalala. Alam ko masyado na siyang maraming iniisip, ayoko ng dagdagan pa kaya nga parang gusto ko na lang na umuwi sa amin kasi pabigat lang ako dito. Gan’yan palagi naiisip ko sa tuwing magkakaganito at alam ko namang mali kasi hindi lang ‘yon ang solusyon. Maya maya pa dumating na, dala ‘yong bote, may tubig na ulit at ibinaba sa tabi ko ang isang order ng kanin at menudo. Tapos nagpaalam na, nagmamadali siya kasi coding kotse niya. Hinalikan pa ako ulit ng matagal habang pinipilit na kunin ang atensyon ko pero ‘di ko pa rin siya tiningnan. Pagkatapos, tumayo na, lumabas na ng kwarto at bumaba na. Maya maya pa’t narinig ko ng naisara na ‘yong pinto ng kotse. Tapos no’n, naiyak na lang ako kasi pakiramdam ko napakasama kong babae kasi ni hindi ko man lang siya tiningnan, ni hindi ko man lang nasabi na ‘thank you’ sa pagbili ng pagkain at pagkuha ng tubig namin pero para sa akin talaga ‘yon kasi hindi ako makainom ng tubig galing gripo, ni hindi ko man lang naiparamdam sa kaniya na naappreciate ko ‘yong effort niya, ni hindi ko man lang siya nahalikan. Wala. Ewan ko. Masama lang loob ko sa sarili ko kasi wala na nga akong maitulong tapos ginano’n ko pa siya. Siya na nga naghanda ng almusal namin kanina eh, pero madalas siya talaga naghahanda ng almusal namin. Wala lang, hindi ko maintindihan sarili ko. Hindi ko alam kung paano ko ba ipapakita sa kaniya na napakahalaga niya sa akin. Hindi ko alam kung bakit pinipigilan ko sarili ko sa tuwing gusto kong ipakita sa kaniya ‘yong nararamdaman ko, kahit noon pa, eh mas lalo na ngayon, mas weird kasi magkasama na kami. Wala, naiiyak lang ako.

— 12:22 AM March 24, 2011

#Drama 

Yesterday, hubby and I went to SM North Edsa to do some grocery.

After that, we went looking for a jack of an adapter for harman kardon’s DC power supply at the department store’s hardware/electronic section. Sadly, we didn’t find such jack, so we went on looking at the furnitures instead. 

Some diner sets got our attentions and he noticed that his phone is a lot more expensive than those sets. We went to microwave ovens and electric ovens, then to air coolers. The one I like has air ionizer and felt really cold but it was kind of fat for our little room, with a price of Php6,500. But still, we added it to our wishlist.

I just don’t know if he meant to walk me along that path where some food chains are, but he pointed out that the yang chow rice in Mr. Chow is unlimited for the the rice topping dishes. I wasn’t feeling really hungry but I had a feeling that he was and he wanted to take some rest, so I agreed that we’d go and eat there and rest our feet a bit. So I ordered Patatim rice topping and he got himself some rice topping with chicken. When our food arrived at the table, I was surprised with the chicken on his plate because it was kind of small compare to the pata of my Patatim. Hubby even said the chicken was bony. Mind you, the price for each rice topping dish is Php98.00. I thought it was alright but when I saw a fruit fly flew on my yang chow rice, I felt that the price is too much. The fruit fly went down into my rice and it got stuck onto some Patatim sauce and couldn’t fly away. So I took some tissue and wiped the spot were the fruit fly went. Before my hubby could even see it, it’s already dead. I wiped that area clean just to be safe. Then we started eating. Hubby took some chili sauce which was great and he also took two glasses and a pitcher of cold water. Since the chili sauce tastes really great, I must have taken alot that made me grab a glass, poured some water in it and drank. As I was drinking, i noticed some brown rectangular bit floating inside it. I showed it to my hubby and he knew me, I wouldn’t drink or eat on something that has some thing floating or crawling in it, so he offered me his glass so we can share. I was really glad by what he did and so I drank from it to somehow lessen the hotness inside my mouth. I forced myself not to mind the two incidents, but as we were eating I noticed that the food chain’s crew were loud and noisy that made my head turn every time they would laugh altogether and shout at each other. There’s nothing wrong with laughing but please, have a little bit of manners. I understand that the chain didn’t have that much customers around that time, but was it really necessary to shout at each other when you’re just near each other and it was so quiet around you? I don’t think so. Anyway, I tried to just resist the urge to turn my head every time they would make noise and get on with my dish. So back to my Patatim. Patatim. It’s one of my favorites but I think their Patatim lacked something. And it’s the sauce. I thought Patatim comes with a lot of sauce. How come theirs kind of dry? But yeah, their yang chow was good. Hubby even insisted that I should get another since it was unlimited, so I did. Gosh, I was so full. I was worried my tummy would bulge. Good thing I could suck my tummy in since I was wearing a little tight white plain tee that I knew would reveal my bulgy tummy and its belly button if I didn’t suck it in. After like an hour or so, I remembered that SM offers free WiFi. So I asked him to bring out his iPhone and I would try to connect it. It was successful but I think it got disconnected for a few times and I didn’t know why. But then, I checked in at my facebook and tagged him. I viewed who were also at SM and there were some models there that made his eyes pop, some Bicolanos and some call center agents too. When I noticed we’ve been sitting there for a long time, it even felt like it’s been hours, I asked him that we should walk so as to avoid developing bilbil.

We went to Interior Zone and started walking along the shops. We talked about a part of his dream house, the design he likes for it, the tiles, the glasses that were messily built for each boutiques in SM, that very beautiful sofa bed that amounts to Php23,000 and added it to our wishlist, the design of the room were the sofa bed belongs and the PVC windows and the sliding doors which he can build himself. Every time we taalk about the design of doors and windows and the house as a whole, we never really agree to each other. We did agree on some very small details but I know I will never agree with him on the materials for the windows and the doors. Maybe I will next time. I’ll find a way to accept his ideas someday.

When he felt like nature’s calling him, went to claim our groceries, went to the parking lot and went home.

— 02:14 AM March 23, 2011

#SM  #Mr. Chow  #iPhone 4  #Interior Zone  #Wishlist 2011 

At saka, bakit siya gano’n?

Every time I would bring this topic up to him, he would get annoyed. Then I’d cry. Then he’d get mad because I’m on it again. Then I’d continue to cry. Then he’d blame me for opening it up again. Then I’d remind him that I think it would be better to open myself to him than to open myself to other boys. That I need him to know what I feel. That I need him because he’s the only one I think could fix me up. Then he’d stop and stare at me while I cry. Then I’d continue to cry and I would say he doesn’t truly love me. Then I’d realize that he doesn’t want to know how I feel. That he doesn’t care about my feelings. That he doesn’t want to fix me and the things he broke. And my feelings and me aren’t important to him anymore.

Gano’n ba talaga siya noon pa at hindi ko lang ‘yon nakita? O hindi siya gano’n dati pero nagbago na siya at talagang wala nang natitira para sa akin?

— 09:16 AM February 25, 2011

#Drama 

How many days have passed after that tragedy in my life happened? Five months or so, I guess.

Anyway, why do I still spend some of my time thinking about it? Why is it that every time I read my previous tweets about him, wishing him happiness, I feel pain, regret, hate and tears would rush down my cheeks? Why?

Why is it that I realized we don’t know each other? Why do I automatically stop myself from doing things I wanna do for him? Why does it feel like I don’t want to continue this anymore?

Even though we’re together again now, it doesn’t feel the same as before. It feels like everything he does is just for show. Why do I feel like he’s just faking everything for the sake of it all? Every time he embraces me, I still feel lonely and sad. The warmth isn’t there anymore, unlike the very first time he hugged me.

Everything’s far too different now. Everything has changed between us and it’s sad it all became like this.

— 08:17 AM February 25, 2011

So it’s my day. I got a few unofficial greetings from my hubby the past week. I also got an advance greeting from our 3rd sibling, that she posted on my wall.

Haha kaya ako tumatawa dyan sa unang comment ko was because magkatabi kami ni Anot no’ng binuksan ko ‘yong notification n’yan. So, sabay naming nabasa. Pagkatapos naming basahin, nagulat siya, sabi niya pa, “Ah ha! Ngayon pala birthday mo ah!” Then saka siya kumanta ng “Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you!” Haha tawa ako ng tawa sa kaniya kasi mali ang iniisip niya. Pero natuwa naman ako kasi gusto niya pa ring alamin ‘yong date. Imagine, more than a year na siyang nanghuhula ng date ng birthday ko? Nakakaawa naman ‘di ba? So Sunday night, before we went to Red Ribbon sa Walter Mart, sinabi ko na kung anong petsa talaga. Haha tawa ako ng tawa.

Pero bakit gano’n, parang mas excited pa siya sa birthday ko. Sabi niya pa, wrong timing pagpunta niya sa Masbate. Pero may last greeting pa rin siya no’ng hinatid ko siya sa gate bago siya umalis.

Siya rin unang nakaalala no’ng February 20 na mensiversary namin. Although, he said “20 ngayon, monthsary natin!” Napangiti lang ako sa kaniya. I was speechless. Oh my gosh. Imagine? I mean, 2007-2010 never niyang sinabi ‘yong gano’n, I swear, he never did. Really, what’s up with him? Nakakatuwa but at the same time nakakagulat..

I wonder, kumusta na kaya siya sa Masbate ngayon.. Sabi niya habang kumakain kami sa Red Ribbon, didiretso siya sa Cebu. So I guess I should expect him not just one week but two weeks before he comes back home.

I only have one thing na napapansin sa kaniya every time na pupunta siya sa malayo, and that is parang meron siyang gustong sabihin ‘pag napasok na ‘yong pag-uwi ko dito sa bahay namin. Hmm. Ano kaya ‘yon noh? Gusto ko siyang tanungin kaso parang ‘wag na lang.

Lol. Bakit may ‘Welcome back to Facebook’ siya? Does that mean na dinedeactivate niya account niya? LOL!

— 01:40 PM February 21, 2011

"Wag ka nang umasa na babalik pa siya sa iyo, talikuran mo na ang lahat pati ang nakaraan niyo. Wag ka magmakaawang parang lupang bitak na uhaw sa tubig, ikaw na mismo ang tumalikod, sa pagita’y maglagay ng bakod. Hindi ka isang duwag na sumusuko’t takot, hindi ka lang nabuhay para maging tangang hahabol-habol na wari’y isang asong ikot ng ikot makagat lamang ang buntot"
— 09:32 PM February 19, 2011

12 overlooked islands worth visiting →

I’ll take Arnold in these islands. Hope he’ll like it.

Pulau Lang Tengah, Malaysia

— 03:08 PM November 30, 2010

#Wishlist  #Travel